Today's been a bit of a downer for me. I can really tell that I've been spending too much time on reading blogs and blogging and Facebook, and not enough time with my Creator. Remember when I was SO EXCITED about all the new stuff that I was discovering about listening to God? It seems to have all drifted off and landed in a pile of "Not now. I'm busy." I was catching up on some blogs in my GR, looking for some encouragement and I found this one from Ladybug Blessings. Psalm 139 is my all-time favorite Psalm, and Kristen writes about it better than I can today. O Lord, you have searched me and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord.
You hem me in- behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.
Where can I go from your spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, :Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,"
even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to found them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.
If only you would slay the wicked, O God! Away from me you bloodthirsty men!
{Psalm 139 NIV}
I get chills just typing this Psalm out. God knows every single little piece of me. I can hide nothing from Him! Why when we are afraid or scared is it that we run from God when where can we go that He could not see us? Nowhere! There is not one place that you can hide that He doesn't know where you are. He is constantly pursuing us and loving us and He wants us to know, just as David knew, that He knows everything about us. He knit us together in our mother's wombs, I love how we are fearfully and wonderfully made! Just imagine, as much as you feel your body isn't the way you want it God made your body, God made you just the way you are for a reason whether you think your thighs are too big or your nose is too long... God made you!! God knows so much more about us then we know about ourselves. He wants us to speak to Him and give Him the opportunity to reveal things to us.
I mean just thinking about it, how He knows the number of hairs on our heads (Matthew 10:30) and the number of days until we see Him again, then why oh why do we ever run from Him? Not really something I have an answer to obviously. But He loves us so much, much more than we can ever fathom that why do we spend time worrying (that would be me) and obsessing over things when we are so fearfully and wonderfully made. "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" (Matthew 8:26). David uses the word wonderfully, which to me means that God made us for a purpose and He doesn't make mistakes. God things you are wonderful! And in my mind God is the one that matters so to whoever hurts you or mistreats you, turn to God because He will always think you are wonderful!!
Now it can be debated what David means when you get to verses 19 and 20 because it kind of changes the direction of the Psalm but how beautiful a Psalm is it? Even at those verses I feel that David is just asking God to remove the evil people who speak harshly of God. He loves His God and cannot stand that there are people who are speaking harshly of Him. He is telling God to search his heart for he knows that God knows all and in the end he asks God to lead him in the way everlasting. Isn't that what we want? For God to lead us in the direction that He wants us to go. We need to slow down and listen to God, to hear Him leading us. For He knows us better than we know ourselves and who better to lead us in the right direction for our lives. I can't think of anyone but Him.
I am so thankful that He loves me so much, that He knit me together, He knits all of us individually together, knows us from our beginnings, that He gave His son for all of us. I mean, it is honestly unfathomable. To love people that much to sacrafice Your son so that others may live? I can't even imagine having to do that. Through God's love and mercy and grace we are able to be saved. He loves us that much. He loves us that He wonderfully made us.
I think I have hammered home my point too much, haha, but I get so discouraged when I see people unhappy with who they "think" they should be or who "society" thinks they should be. Does society matter over God? No, never. So why do we care so much over what others think when really the One who matters loves us no matter what. I just wish we could get away from having to have the perfect bodies and everything that is such an outward apperance and focus on the interior workings of our hearts and souls. I wish that is what society, television, etc focused on. It pains me to think what God thinks when He sees the great lengths people will go to so they can fit what they feel is ideal. It is like He is up there saying, "my child, you are ideal, you are what my ideal vision for you is. Why is it that you cannot be happy with what I have given you?" I don't mean to say we shouldn't take care of ourselves, because we most definitely should, I am not saying that at all. It just seems like society spends so much time and energy focusing on trying to be perfect and change things that they have put those things higher up than God and people let their trying to be perfect take the place of their time with God.
Sorry this went on so long. I just wish people would realize how much God loves them and cares for them and how they are wonderful in His sight. I write this as much for me as for whoever may read this because I have the same issues sometimes. But we have to remember how God made us and how He knit us together, in His image.
[via Ladybug Blessings]